it makes sense, honestly

I’m not the type to avoid risks, if anything I run towards them.

The world is already unsafe on its own for someone like me, I’ve already come to terms with that, but I also know that I’ve been given a Spirit of courage and boldness.

But that is exactly why my home needs to be safe.

Where I come back to at the end of the day needs to be safe.

That’s why when you said you want to be a policeman, it wasn’t going to work. My mind at the time battled so hard between wanting to support your passion and also feeling unsafe. The mental exhaustion of fighting the world just by existing, and taking off my shoes to enter a home that “may be attacked, but it’s okay because we will have a life lock” was too much.

I definitely fought with those thoughts for a long time until I realized I can’t do it. The world isn’t going to drastically change anytime soon, so I need to protect myself so that I can also survive, so that I can also live.

The fact that you couldn’t see that was your privilege.